I've sort of stopped writing personal journals, but this is a journal I really want to write Maybe it'll inspire some other people as well. One can only hope!

Recently I completed a cosplay of mine that I had been dreaming of doing for over a decade.
In 2005 my very good friend Sketch did a Lynx cosplay, and ever since then I made it a goal of mine to one day make Serge and get some photos with my self-adopted brother.

It's not a very hard costume, but making it meant a lot to me.

Now, a lot of people think it's pretty odd when someone says "video games taught me a lot about life" because, honestly, how can sitting in your room all day teach you about life?
Am I right?

Like pretty much every other nerd on the planet; I grew up without many friends, and the ones I did have I either saw rarely, or were thousands of miles away.
My life began to boil down to video games and anime.
But when I was 10 years old, my sister ~ReekaValentyne and I played this amazing game called Chrono Cross. Many will argue that Trigger was much better, and I'll agree it was amazing, but playing Chrono Cross and getting everything perfect became something my sister and I looked forward to every day after school. We didn't bond much over anything else at the time, pretty much video games and our love for fighting with each other was all we did together (lol).

We loved the game so much that we made it a point to finish it from beginning to end every year. That alone made it special to me.

Throughout the game you play as Serge, who's existence confuses not only the people around him, but more importantly himself. Everyone runs into this question in life: "Who am I?" "Why am I here?" etc; Questions that I had just begun to start wondering myself that the game got me thinking about even more.

I couldn't define myself, like Serge, so I began to connect with the game on a deeper personal level.
The many people Serge meets throughout the game and the situations he finds himself in boils down to, well what else, fate.
Are our entire lives manufactured?
Do we really have control over what happens to us?

In the end, Serge and Kid beat their "destiny" and prove that your life is for the taking.
I felt silly being so inspired by a video game, but the moral of the story stuck with me for years. This game quickly became, and still is, my favourite game of all time.

I've been trying to beat the path everyone feels is laid out for me, and like the rest of the world, I try to improve myself every day. Still I feel like I've been hitting a brick wall for years... then the question pops up again; "Do we have any control over fate?"

Many times I've been on the brink of giving into the norm I so desperately wished to escape. I wanted--want--more from life. This can't be all there is, can there?

Then, a few months ago, when I thought things couldn't possibly get worse... I woke up. I realized everything I was doing was all wrong. Constantly complaining about things I can't change instead of working on what I CAN change. I felt like Serge when he was reborn into his new body.
In the end, the problem was myself. We all want to find scapegoats in our lives, we want to find someone to blame for why our lives are the way they are, but honestly... if you really want something so important like your life to change, why leave it up to someone else?

I took my life by the horns, and instead of being charged over or looking around for a rodeo clown to save me, I pushed back just as hard.
It's only been about a month, but my life is rapidly getting better.

Every day my new boss inspires me to be only better at everything in life. We are capable of whatever we set our minds to. You can literally be and do anything you want in life; you set your limits, no one else does.
"Reach for the Sun, and you'll get to the Moon." he says.
Well, I'm a 'Star Stealing Girl'... and I think we all should be


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"Star Stealing Girl"
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